Friday night party!!!
Streamed live on May 17, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nUxD914oMU

hey big sis hi Lisa hanchuan
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welcome welcome I am doing good thank
you for asking
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hi Sahara slam okay I put my phone over
there or thinking it would be fine uh
health is doing pretty good thank you
hi Marie I am doing good hallo welcome
welcome you guys sorry I'm moving all
around Ramadan is doing good doing good
everybody's doing pretty good pretty
good thank you well I appreciate it
hey Jenny girl welcome
I was just sitting there and I was like
you know it's Friday night we need to we
need to light this place up and party
kids are doing good I'm actually in my
office as you guys can see this
brilliant office of mine because my kids
would not leave me alone and I needed to
come live and talk to all of my peeps
so I said see ya oh hey Linda welcome
you know I did I do
did I not do a giveaway this month hey
and welcome bago Suzie I love you too I
haven't well well well
um let me think about this one okay I
promise I'm not gonna let you all fly
down no no yes please give me a thumbs
are up hey it's Brandi Oh all my papers
are falling out yeah I will definitely I
mean I love doing my giveaways so
definitely it's you know the one thing
that I enjoy doing so I love giving back
to you guys
I'm doing good Brandi thank you for
asking hey Linda you know what you just
got to go for it bite it and you know it
takes hey Linda Willis welcome hi family
eats and treats how are you I'm doing
good good good good um Linda you know
starting a business I'm not gonna I'm
talking a lie it's hard it's hard but if
you are consistent and you push for it
you can do it you can definitely do it
and do it Nell tutorial yeah I can try I
haven't been doing my own else I've been
actually going and getting them done
although my nails are need to be filled
as you guys can tell that's bad but I
just I haven't had time I haven't felt
like going and getting them filled so I
told her leave they were getting way too
long though like they're my crown else
so I told Holly I was like you know what
I'm just gonna cut him down shape him up
a little bit and make it go that is good
to hear family eats
I'm his job - I love your his shows
especially the bun yellow ones Oh
thank you yeah I need to be able to do
them but I just
the ninjas don't work for me for me to
have full coverage as I'm showing them
so I'm just trying to figure out a way
to do that and if I could figure it out
then I will definitely do it I just
haven't figured out a little what do you
want to call it like a little trick I
guess you'd say because these ones I
could well I guess I could do it with
these I guess I could I hope everyone is
having a great day yes for me
how many weeks they last um this is
going on three weeks Saturday Morrow
will be three weeks since I've gotten a
fill I mean they're still good they just
they they do have grow out but there's
nothing I can do about it I just I just
don't feel like going to get them done
hi Clare welcome evening Amy first live
i've caught only because i haven't saw
me all chronic illness and pain it's
2:30 in the morning here in england oh
Claire I'm so sorry
I'm glad you're here but I'm sorry to
hear that you're here because you're in
pain hello bless this crazy mess welcome
I know I'm going to start a fashion
stylist business and I am just trying to
figure it all out you know you just have
to just you have to learn from mistakes
practice makes perfect
you know I made a tumblr over the
weekend last weekend sorry and it just
didn't look right to me it didn't look
professional so I just was like you know
I I stared at it for a couple of days
and I tried to see if it was just maybe
me being myself you know where I can be
so critical of my own work and I wasn't
feeling it so yep I went and I did a
strip and I stripped the whole cup from
epoxy and everything and it's a I mean
it's a long process but I
did it and you know it is what it is but
you learn from your mistakes and I did
the cup over it's now on the Turner with
its first a coat of a NEX epoxy and it
looks beautiful
so thank you for the wonderful wishes I
have lupus and FiberNet
oh Claire you know I I have heard of
lupus I've heard of fibrin now my belch
I know I'm gonna say that wrong I've
heard of them but I've never really knew
the how bad that they control people's
life until I just recently have been in
contact with well some of you guys have
are on their Channel but shoot the shit
Pam suffers with lupus really really
really bad and it can take her out for
days where she won't be vlogging are not
walking but they come live she won't
come live because she just says she's in
bed so ill and I'm just like I could not
imagine having that type of a sickness
that literally excuse me
controls your life uh we have nighttime
here and dark oh you guys still have Sun
up there oh yeah it is still sunny it's
gloomy out let me see if I can show you
out my window it's gloomy nasty for the
the one person that always asked me to
go sit in my car I'm in my car where are
you oh my heart goes got a scare heart
on the news that there was a shooting in
Portland today oh I haven't even watched
the news I don't know we actually had a
shooting the other night and one of our
officers her head it's not see if
anywhere hey Margaret
welcome what time is it there um I don't
know
I don't have my I don't want her my key
on but it's roughly around six I think
six
no I think it's close to six 3615 6:30
yep got safe anywhere that's why I'm
home all the time yeah it's I mean maybe
assets
oh it's 6:35 here it's just the time of
you know where we're at in the times
it's it's sad you know I mean every time
I Drive now my doors in my car locked
today we were trying and oh wow 36 Wow
that's late there and we were driving in
this guy just randomly started like
throwing uh I don't even know I I want
to say it was like it look like a rosary
but he's thrown
but it was like most hitting cars I'm
just like dude you hit my car we're
gonna fun we're going to have an issue
Oh
and so yeah I just I always drive with
my windows are my doors locked because
you know Ollie will be like no you don't
have to worry about I am in the car and
I'm like you're in the front seat have
somebody open up the back doors what are
you going to do in the situation with
our kids in the back seat no we're going
to lock the doors and so yeah he's I
mean it's not it's not the safest place
but I mean we live in the safest part of
the area but I mean I don't think
anywhere is safe anymore to be honest
definitely I agree with you I do agree
with you so I'm I'm using my monster
monster he came for a ride hey Chevy
chef how are you I love it it's my fave
well no I can't say it's my favorite
because I think I have found I I want to
say that it's good and hot how what's
the temp over there yeah I made this
it's from the Monsters Inc
hey Lisa welcome thank you everybody
yes he is my friend he's my he's my he's
my monster he goes with me everywhere
I love it Oh 86 yuck if Michelle comes
on I have her cup I sitting right here
next to me but I want to wait and see if
she comes on and I can show her what am
i drinking
I'm actually drinking a vitamin water
right now so I started out I started out
fasting today but and I almost said aunt
Suzie ha ha ha
Aunt Flo came and visited so yeah I'm
off of the ringer for a couple of days
at least hey Jordan welcome so I end up
breaking fast at like 1 o'clock I was
drinking Molly comes in he's like what
are you doing oh yes oh yes Shelly I do
I do I do oh yeah BB Hydra is not cool
not cool you're not Linda okay family
thank you hey Susie welcome not Adi a
doubler I figure that's what you were
saying ha ha ha hey Seattle yeah I love
him and you know and that's just it is
that's the exciting news I have going I
just I want to share it so bad but I
don't know should I share my news with
you guys or should I wait it's like you
know give you guys a gift and telling
you you can sniff it but you can't open
it
I missed you guys
hi Dan I saw you at McDonald's in
conversation today
did you Melanie oh you should have honk
the horn I was getting the baby some uh
ice cream and Oh
so here's my story from today so I
dropped all the off at prayer and then I
told him okay I'm gonna go drive around
and I'm gonna go take him to go get ice
cream so I went and um sorry I was
reading the message and I went and I got
their ice cream and I was like I'm
thirsty I am thirsty and so I was like
okay you know fine
so Jodie welcome um and so I went got
them ice cream got her the large water
and Omar could not stop screaming right
and I'm just like I'm driving he's
thirsty he wants water and I'm like okay
hold on I'm gonna try this so I reached
back and they gave the water to s her
and told Ezra you know giving it to a
three-year-old to give it to her brother
well they did they passed it perfect
perfect nope no problems
well the Nestor wanted a drink and mr.
Omar went to go and hand it to her and
let me tell you that water went
everywhere I was soaked in ice cold
water and let me tell you when you're
driving down the road and all you see is
water in front of you I was like oh my
god but yeah I was I went to the Kaiser
station today for that I'm missing all
these messages let's see
hey bish is it binshot binshot I am
doing good welcome to lamb Shelley I
will share like the woman selling LaRue
no common you've got our curiosity up to
emergence elitism oh I know
I'm so sorry I was reading
I'm like forgot to tell you guys hey Amy
love how real you are love your channel
love your Monsters Inc up Oh
Karen thank you think you think you
think you I know I see so many names on
my newbies I'm so excited
um anyways okay so for all the ones that
are here you guys will get the tea first
um
I am launching for the first time ever
my first real website and it's gonna be
of all of my cups and all the different
things that I can make will be on that
actual website so it will have a URL
it's gonna have a domain it will have
all of it so now when people put in WWV
no nut designs calm my actual website hi
Cindy my actual real website will come
up and so I'm getting business cards
made I'm so exciting I think this is
really gonna help me to get my name out
there even more with my cups
I'm really hoping I'm just you know I'm
I'm kind of stuck you know because I get
orders but I want to keep busy on them
so much and so thank you hi kitty
welcome thank you so much for joining my
channel hi Jessica I am doing good thank
you
you wanted the tea yes you got the tea
and you got the email for the tumble or
two coming but it will make it so much
nicer though then being like oh well you
know because otherwise so many people
have a hard time like I mean you can put
an order in but if you don't know what
you're looking for to order how are you
supposed to do that but this way it's
and I have my cousin's the one building
it for me and she has degrees in college
for web designing so you can only
imagine how nice this website is already
looking but I'm waiting till the 21st
for everything to be up I have a few
people writing me
reviews that I will submit over to her
so she could put them into the website
I'll be able to take credit cards PayPal
you name it I'll be able to accept all
those payments it's gonna be officially
like a real a real business and so and
also I am paying for my name so that
will also be another thing that nobody
can take my name from me so it will be a
legit real real real business and I
could not be more happy and more excited
but this has been like it's been a long
work in progress because our process
because it's like you know yeah I'm
having to get pictures and submit them
over to her we're having to come up with
prices and you know colors and all of
that stuff but it's slowly getting there
it will be launched no later than the
22nd of this month because I will pay
the fees and everything on the 21st so
thank you and I'm so excited you guys
you have no idea I get emails all the
time and messages where can I go and do
you have a website and it's like no I
don't and I just don't feel 100%
professional without having that because
it just isn't as easy it's not as
accessible this way you know like I went
into Bed Bath and Beyond the other day
because when you purchased tumblers from
me I always include a colored straw that
matches the cup to the best that I can
sometimes they can't but like this one
so I put a green you guys can see that a
green with the green to match it and so
anyways I went in there and the lady was
asking me why I was buying so many
straws and so I was telling her why you
know I have a business and this is what
I do and she took my name down she took
everything down and she was like oh my
gosh I'm gonna you know check this out
and you know and so this way having
business cards and having a website and
having all of that stuff will
also help with that plus I can bring my
channel into my website which will be
even nicer because then I'll also be
able to help get my name out there with
my channel so yeah I'm excited
I am truly excited it's been it's been a
good good week good week well I mean
this has been going on for at least uh
probably close to three weeks but yeah
yeah so what's everybody up to on this
Friday night Friday afternoon Friday
evening Friday morning I don't know
wherever you all are at hey lives live
well yes it an order in girlfriend get
an order in
thank you Karen so much I appreciate it
Oh Susie must say I saw you so funny
who the flu I'm so sorry
that's not fun at all oh you were doing
Facebook Oh lots of people I've heard a
lot of people are been really really
sick so everybody take care I ain't
gonna say anything because if I say
something one of my family members will
set be sick usually I'm like oh no we're
perfect in the next thing you know I've
got a puker or something I am laying
here on my phone my husband is giving me
a phone
George where you at where you out what a
girl needs rub because I need a foot rub
too we Ralphie's next to me snoring look
Frick tree just a home I take care of my
mom who's 8500 no Cindy I'm sorry to
hear that
give her a give her a hug for me laying
in bed scene you were on line not much
boring uh oh well you know what we are
all doing the boring thing I came home
I helped all you because we're gonna
have enchiladas for dinner we're gonna
have chicken green chili enchiladas and
then steak red sauce enchiladas yes and
so I was helping him cook the well I say
cooking he's like oh my gosh you act
like you've been slaving over them the
stove the whole time I'm like boy I'm in
this kitchen helping you so stop it I
was heating up the tortillas but we buy
the like the real real tortillas yeah
Jody mm-hmm let's let's just say Ezra
was a back scratch not a joke whatsoever
Oh Shelly isn't that fun Ollie are Ollie
Maya's in his room playing for tonight
right now actually although I was the
one that asked for the back scratch
that's the problem I was like baby can
you scratch my back yeah and then about
12 weeks later positive pregnancy test I
need to come to your house yeah Seattle
see see yeah I didn't I think it was too
funny at the time but now I can just
laugh hey Jennifer welcome I am having
Chinese tomorrow night I get Indian
Pakistan food at the dinner tomorrow Oh
YUM she plays with her uncle Oh Shelly
that's awesome right Lisa come on now
Chris get a little bit of never mind
I'll be quiet get adventurous okay I
thought men sex drive was supposed to
decrease with age there's a blank stare
there Chris Ramadan is doing great thank
you for asking um I broke fast today
because I
started my cycle and so I am NOT on for
right now yes Lisa yes you are correct
I had chicken shawarma with pita tonight
it was so good ooh yum Suzie he he is a
hottie and he is super oh never my gosh
who's Michelle's bi o who is Michelle's
bi L sup brother-in-law now I'm confused
yeah Michelle gets on e i'ma show perk
up off I don't want to ruin it until she
kids on here guys I'll get away unless
she comes on mm-hmm like a teenage boy
no kidding
I tell ya oh my goodness I am eight away
from going life again yay
are you serious yeah yeah yay if you're
not subscribed to laws channel you can
feel free to jump on over and subscribe
she's trying to get her numbers back up
so she can go live again she's not
responding to her tags
oh no oh no it's cuz she wants you all
to have to wait but yeah I don't know Oh
so anyways but all he's gonna go Oh
shucks yes
all he's gonna go a little bit later and
go down to the the Mexican restaurant
booth trying to think right and get the
real salsa and the real beats because I
can't I just I can't do the whole can be
thing we did that the other day and it
just just wasn't going alright I miss
him missing how's the weather it's
gloomy gloomy and not very I mean it's
got very humid actually very humid I'm
here Amy I'm excited to see my cup
Michelle haha true okay hold yo oh thank
you bless this crazy mess Thank You
Jennifer
yes LA but you you need to come here and
cook me my food come here I'm not
traveling you come here oh thank you
kitty Oh chef rainy and humid there too
any time law any time oh yes oh yes we
got to see the cop we've we've got to
see this cup sticky here in Michigan hot
flashes ain't helping oh Lisa ah no no
no no can't can't do that either
alright you guys so you want the reveal
of her cup do ya okay so remember hers
is hers if I can hold it right a cup the
cup hope you have central air Lisa hi
Mitch okay how do we go so I don't know
if you guys can be able to see it so
it's the x-files
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I want to believe and then it has her
name with UFOs all around it and it's
just black sorry I know the glare is
awful because I'm in the car trying to
do it you guys can see it and I did her
name a little bit shorter a smaller
because she said just a little small so
thank you guys thank you thank you I
hope she likes it thank you thank you
hers didn't take as long as like a lot
of them take a lot longer but because
hers was a little bit of a smaller size
see she has the long straight one and
then there's this one these ones
obviously take longer because there's
more body to fill then the straight one
so that's why it doesn't take us long
I'm missing comments
Amy do do you only do cups or do you do
other things also Sydney I could pretty
much do anything anybody wants but
lately I've just been doing cups but I
mean I could do anything I vinyl
t-shirts I you name it I can do it I
because like I'm a jack-of-all-trades
when it comes to like crafting stuff
they're all the same price law well
there will be a few things changing when
my website goes up that is that is one
thing is there will be some changes but
not really a lot of changes but there
will be a little bit of a fluctuation of
pricing by the way that I'm doing this
sizing yeah keychains t-shirts cups I
have been done to eat keychains very
much site it's not really been a very
highly recommended thing I do play yeah
I do plastic tumblers Kelly thank you
for asking and yes I will have a link
here by the 22nd of this month I will be
launching an actual real website with
all of my cups and everything on there
that you would be able to do an order
and pay for everything online and I'll
be able to accept credit card and PayPal
and all sorts of stuff so I will
definitely have that coming up Bruce
what I'm so excited I want to order one
but I can't decide off Pinterest I that
is the hardest part
Jennifer where's the babies the babies
are in the house I am in my office mama
needed a break mama needed to go into
her office so mama is in her office
right now while the babies are in the
house with Daddy sure sure
anything law anything
you are so so so funny when you laugh in
your videos I feel else so oh you're
welcome
I'm so happy that my yeah no my office I
know that what no that is not that does
not work for me because my children are
like ducks and they follow behind me so
I not only have one child but I have two
and you know what they will come and
line up on the bathtub and they will sit
there I'm like why why why do you have
to be in my bathroom with me because
thank you Karen yeah you're ready mama
time is still important but no I'm
serious like the bathroom is not my
downtime now or I have one that jumps up
on the kitchen or the bathroom counter
and it's flipping the switch on and off
on and off on and off on and off and I'm
like oh my god would you just get out of
my bathroom no no it doesn't work so I
just I finally have given up always like
Amy lock your door really they they go
under my door and they're like this with
their fingers waiting to see oh Lisa
that's too much it's ridiculous so I'm
just like or like the other day Omar I
know this can be a little bit TMI but
Omar was like mommy and I gotta go poop
I gotta go poop I'm like okay go like
what why are you telling me so next
thing you know he goes come on Ezra I
gotta go poop come sit down with me he's
on the toilet she's on the shower or on
the shower thing watching and then when
he's done then she says re then he says
okay I swear you can flush the toilet it
was
his little bodyguard sitting there while
he's taking his crap on the toilet and
I'm like good grief why would you want
to be in there once I was taking a dump
like get out of there no not my kids you
know they're like so unseparable though
it's ridiculous like they are
inseparable they go everywhere together
the other guest was yesterday a day
before we separated them all he took
Omar and I kept Ezra and I swear you not
both of them were crying between the two
of us having them because they wanted
each other I'm like but then you guys
sit there and fight and beat the crap
out of each other but then when they're
apart
god forbid they're gonna flip out which
is gonna be real fun when Omar goes into
kindergarten because that's our house a
year before she can go so I mean she's
gonna be the only child home for they
are 12 months apart Lisa so pretty much
you can say they are can you put
photographs on tumblers great question
Pookie you know honestly I have never
done it yet I said I was going to
practice and I haven't done it I need to
get a photo just something that I have
and try it I'm pretty sure I figured out
how to do it because I've done some
research on it so I'm 99% sure I can do
it but I don't want that one person to
be something of a mess up and ruin
someone's picture so let me practice
with that but I'm pretty sure that I can
do it I I don't see why there would be
an issue haha don't see
okay Lisa well what you can do is if you
want to I'm trying to think how you
would do that if you want to send it to
me if you wanted to send it to me and
then I can do it that way hey Zack
Bradbury welcome um if you wanted to
send it to me I could try and I mean I'm
not gonna try with your picture first
that's the thing I will have to try with
something else first cuz I ain't gonna
try and mess it up but I'm pretty sure I
can do it I don't see why I couldn't
okay Lisa yeah that would work too
I want a pup so bad yeah that's what I'm
gonna do Lisa I'm just gonna practice
practice practice Jody you're too much
yeah I just need to definitely do a
little bit more practicing so I feel a
little bit more comfortable but you know
what it's did you say Pepperpot
eyes I want a puppy pup oh she's asking
it's a cat honey it's a cat heads in the
gutter no pretty much they say as long
as you cased the picture in then it you
should have no problems so if I if you
case the picture in with like they say
like with plastic or tape or something
like that so if I somehow figure out how
to case it then I it would be fine you
just don't want it to get moisture in it
and that's the biggest thing so and the
moisture would be the epoxy
you guys are all along yourselves just
chatting away and I'm sitting here just
I don't know Michelle you disappeared he
didn't tell me if you liked your cup and
on
not my chef you are ridiculous
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someone's heads in the gutter George you
need to take care of your her life take
care of your wife oh my gosh
nothing much is happening just been kind
of chillaxing
we went and ran some errands today and
oh my gosh so I was so upset uh I signed
up for this yes please hit the thumbs up
everybody
thumbs up um I set up the thing where
with the ups so Jodi I listened and I
did it um Oh
Jodi uh so I set up the ups there USPS
thing where they'll send you the free
shipping stuff and then they'll come and
they'll pick up your items and all that
so I did that and they were I had a
scheduled to go out yesterday oh did she
okay Susie I didn't even see her I mean
I seem that she said hello but I didn't
the Komen started going so fast I think
I'm probably must it but anyways uh-oh
Georgie's a take care of his wife my god
anyways um anyway it was supposed to be
scheduled to pick up yesterday now so we
end up having to go to the post office
and take the products to the post office
so now they didn't go out yesterday like
they were supposed to so they will go
out I'm assuming today and they were
scheduled to be delivered on the 18th to
the people that were having them
delivered and no I think it'll be now
the 19th because obviously clearly
they're not going to be out so the
lady's like well we'll talk to the post
office I'm like are the mail carrier I'm
like
yeah I think that would be nice you know
I paid for the fee to have it pick and
you know picked up and absolutely
nothing nothing new nothing new just
chillin I was missing all my peeps so I
wanted to come on here and have a Friday
night partay oh that's a good idea pokey
poop is it pokey Oh chef we know you we
know how you are you getting all the
rolling and then everybody follows it oh
thank you Michelle thank you I didn't
see for sure and so I was like oh no I
hope that she liked it because like I
said I'm the worst critic of my own work
Jodie you and Chris are dangerous
together you guys are gonna get me
demonetised
oh and the pollen here is not helping
the situation at all with all oh jeez
I've never had allergies before but well
let me tell ya they're heightened to me
but anyways yes I just wanted to come on
and tell everybody that I miss you oh
and I love y'all and to keep getting my
name out there because for some reason
my channel dropped subscribers and I'm
like oh alright what's going on who
don't like me I got up to like 865 and
then I dropped out 860 and I'm like oh
oh I'm gonna fight with somebody here
real quick yes if anybody has not
subscribed to law to lost channels she
just did a dot if you have not
subscribed could you jump over she's
trying to get five more subscribers so
she can go
live on her Channel she's really working
hard and anybody if you guys have
channels you put a green heart up and
everybody go and subscribe to each other
uh-oh it's starting to rain and I'm like
what is that noise so everybody can
enter I like and enter so everybody can
go and subscribe to each other uh so
yeah Jodie you always have to be
backwards don't you you're welcome
Michelle and yeah so I just finished I
still have to like clean the edges like
the my the edges are still the football
still inside the edges are still need to
be cleaned and all of that and I still
got to run it through the wash and stuff
but um it'll be ready to ship here in
the next couple of days but yeah I'm
just I want my channel to grow I just
say here and I wonder like I'll see the
numbers going down I'll be like what the
heck like why are they going down like
come on give me I mean I'm so grateful
and so thankful to see my numbers where
they're at but when I see him go down I
feel like what did I do wrong like I
mean I know that I've done nothing wrong
I know but it's still like that whole
you second-guess yourself like you know
I get so hard on myself that I'll be
like telling all the all like what did I
do and he'll like you did nothing honey
well why are they unsubscribing from me
then he's like we'll think about how
YouTube does their sweeps he's like
think about it they do their sweeps and
they'll take people off and I'm just
like I know Oh chef no you're not I just
don't know like I it's hard these days
it's harder to get your name out like
that's that is really seriously one of
the things I will say but what has
helped me is like the sticker on the
back of my
our that has helped me a hundred percent
because I've gained quite a few
subscribers just from having my sticker
on my car from around town and even
driving into Portland I mean clearly I
had a few people add me one they're like
oh my god I seen you going over the
bridge and um you're at 155 Suzy but
yeah you know it's it is hard that is
one thing it's like you really have to
like I mean you only have 19 well see
you Linda put a star on your heart next
your name exactly Suzy honestly I mean
it is it's it's it's definitely a few
dollars you get from it hate pink oh my
god I have not seen you in forever
oh my goodness how are you doing Jody
but no I just to everyone and the word
um um um who was it I don't even
remember um little sissy you did nothing
wrong just be you the awesome Spurrier
will be oh thank you and thank you but
yeah I mean it is a passion of mine it
is a passion but it's still like you
know and like I said the few dollars are
nice I mean I don't get paid like
thousands my god but you know I get a
couple I think YouTube it may they make
it hard for you to gain money though I'm
gonna tell you that right now a lot of
people think oh I'm gonna get a channel
and I'm gonna start making money it's
not that easy
haha if it was that easy I think
everybody would do be doing it but doing
good been swamped with my little cookie
business taking off its just left today
they had been here for a week visiting
Oh pink oh do you ship your cookies or
how do you do that and it's always hard
when your parents leave I wouldn't know
but you know what you gonna do I love
hearing about everybody's small
businesses you know because it's like
then you realize that your business can
be something to one day you know as long
as I dedicate more time to it
I do ship I'll send you a link on
Facebook oh yes girl anybody want the
link to pink thing let you know let you
know let you know let her know I want to
see I want to see your link please let
me know see pink everybody wants your
link I definitely want it actually you
know what
send me your link and I can put it in my
descriptions of my channel how about
that right Lisa
somebody said cookies me too I am
redoing my channel and going to go in a
different direction but I am going to
put my business on my channel Linda
that's awesome and you know and that's
just it is when I very first started my
channel it was kind of shopping you know
shopping hall tech things but then that
wasn't really my fill then I I jump
straight into my weight loss journey
which it's a slow slow process but it's
going but I didn't want that to be my
sole focus on my channel because I have
so much more to offer and so much more
to share and then when I started with my
like my childhood trauma healing I felt
like that was more kind of right now
where my mindset is and that's just it
is that I right now I'm so focused on
trying to heal the past so that I can
make such a better future that right now
I'm just I mean I'm still being very
cautious don't get me wrong I'm still
being very cautious on what I eat or
what I take in but at the same time I'm
not I'm not weighing like I was because
I started to feel like I was becoming
obsessed with the skill and that my my
therapist was just like no that's not
that's not healthy that's not what we're
wanting you to do and so because of that
I I put my scale away I weighed the
first day of Ramadan because I wanted to
see where I was at and where I'll be at
the end of Ramadan I was gonna wait
every day of Ramadan but I realized that
that was kind of silly because your body
is like I don't your body is so flex you
went when you're on something like this
because your body holds and then it
releases and not to be too much to you
my but when I fast all day well this is
I think pretty much anybody that fast is
all day and then they eat it goes right
through you like sister you're running
to the bathroom like gripping yourself
and so I just I was like I'm not gonna
be waiting every single day I think
that's becoming an obsessive again so I
went ahead and decided that I would do a
Wayne at the beginning of I made it I
made it oh my gosh I was reading a
little Susie's comment I started to
speak on it um
I weighed in the first day of Ramadan
and I will weigh the last day of Ramadan
and then I'm gonna talk about it like
where my body is out but you know I was
telling ollie today actually I said you
know I feel like I've gained weight on
Ramadan and he's like well have you
weighed yourself and I'm like no not
since the first day and he's like well
then that's just your mind telling
you that you don't know about to be
positive which is true I like completely
agree but it's still like you know that
whole I don't know I just feel I feel
like I've gained because my shirts have
gotten a little bit tighter on me and
I'm like oh no I don't have big clothes
to go back into I really don't so Amy
best can best get on her game a little
bit
hey Sandy's life welcome thank you for
stopping in but yeah I just I don't know
I I don't know but I'm I'm like right at
that standstill where I told ollie that
after Ramadan I think I'm really gonna
step up and take some big leaps some big
leaps to drop some big amount of weight
I don't know what I'm gonna do just yet
but it's coming I yeah it's coming I
have to because was summertime coming
and stuff I just you know I know what to
do I know what I was doing prior to me
kind of stopping everything and I think
that it's normal with anybody that's on
a food journey a food journey a
weight-loss journey I think it's normal
for everybody to kind of come to a
standstill at some point and kind of
take a break but I think at the same
time you have to be very careful when
that happens because like with me when I
become a standstill on my weight-loss
journey I start backtracking and I start
little by little by little back strap by
backtracking all of those things that I
had succeeded in I just throw it by the
wayside by the time I'm done I'm back at
square one and I don't want that this
time and so it's kind of hard to do that
when I'm on Ramadan because I mean you
only get one mil and you can't play with
that you know you have to get your
nutrition in you know no I'm not
stuffing myself like the very first
night I will say the very first night
that we broke Ramadan or we broke fast
I ate so much I made myself sick like
literally I like I stuffed myself to the
point where I could barely move it hurt
and I haven't done that and mom all God
I haven't done that in at least probably
eight months when I like really last
benched but since then I was just like
ooh you know I think I'm gonna back up a
little bit
eat slower you know try and relax what
I'm eating and I've been very cautious
when it comes to night time but the my
snacking am i drinking I've been
drinking lots of water instead of
anything else but I just told Ollie that
once ramadan ends I'm gonna make some
drastic changes and it's I can't I have
to I have to get back on board because I
was losing so much and I was losing and
feeling so good and I remember you know
putting all my shirts and feeling so
good what about it and now it's like I
dread putting my shirts on because
they're getting tight again and I don't
want that I don't want that I don't ever
want to feel that way again and so yeah
I don't know where that came from and I
don't know what we were talking about
but there is my touching touching story
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but anyways yes I am definitely gonna
get back on board sandy you love the
name I love it
I'm so happy to see pink benek I've
missed her
I agree Lisa I agree it's not easy but
you know and that's what I keep telling
myself I will always struggle with my
eating disorder I will that is something
I will always struggle with I will never
wake up one day and be like oh I'm
completely healed and never ever ever
like
ever have to think about this again I
will always I will always struggle with
this but I've got too much going on in
my life to fall back into the bad the
bad things and I am too far into it to
allow myself to come go back to the the
lifestyle I had and I you know I didn't
love life then it's hard to stay on
track my sister had emergency surgery
today and might need her leg amputated
and I ain't ifs and opes oops and I have
eaten chips in pee oh sandy I'm so sorry
is your sister Sharon right you I think
you posted them on Facebook that is so
true and you know I've noticed you know
I noticed too something that is really
interesting to me but it shows that I
still am struggling with my eating
problems because I noticed when I oh
sandy I'm so sorry
yes analysts not life life home life is
sometimes hard to you I agree pink I do
and that's why I think like I was saying
is I noticed that my my stress eating
and it's not really even stress eating
but this is where my emotional eating
comes in is when I the phone with my mom
bio mom I noticed that I eat I will
start eating
I don't binge I have not benched but
then my therapist said well what do you
think of binges because a binge could
mean many different things a binge can
mean that you have eaten past your full
point a binge can I mean there's
multiple things for what a binge could
be for me a binge in my
is when I check out I'm not like I'm not
there I'm eating but I'm not there when
that's the biggest thing when I eat in
in secret you know I I haven't done that
in a very long time I did that that
probably the beginning of my marriage I
did but I haven't for a long time like
done the whole eating in private where
all he doesn't know where I hide the
evidence or whatever that might be
I thought he was coming out yeah sandy I
mean it's just it's I guess everybody
has their own definition of what their
own binge is and that's where you own
your binge and that's what my therapist
was explaining to me is that a binge is
what you own what you owe of it like I
own a binge when I know that I'm eating
and I have checked out when I'm eating
in private when I've eaten past my full
point to the point where I'm sick those
to me that is what I would consider a
binge but I noticed a lot of times when
I get off the phone with my mom
I don't binge but I emotional eat and I
eat we're past what I need to eat right
I think it's a personal thing and I
don't think anyone mattress anyone
else's sandy that's a hundred percent
correct I mean and that again is what my
therapist has said because I've told her
I said well you know this person says a
binge is this and I don't binge and I
don't have a vineyardist disorder but
I've been diagnosed with it so how did
you diagnose me with a binge disorder if
I don't match the same as theirs mmm
and she's like the same thing it's up
it's mainly a personal thing I've been
using marijuana to help with my health
problems I just need to learn how to
control the munchies after I use it
oh Lisa yeah that would be tough that
would be a hard one I mean I don't
personally use it but I do understand
because I I know people that use it for
that so them that would be hard is
wanting to to snack and see and that's
just it is I used to never be like a
sweet eater I used to never be which is
so weird because it honestly is the
God's truth I was never one to want
sweets and stuff but now it's like
whatever I can get my hands on I'll eat
it
and that's just so sad that I have
allowed myself to get to that point but
when I started my weight-loss journey
with my dietitian and my trauma therapy
therapist I felt like I really had my
hands on grips like just like I was
getting it down and I have learned so
many amazing techniques but the problem
is is that I haven't seen my
nutritionist therapist in a few months
because she moved to a different
facility and it was just getting too
hard to drive from one facility to the
other facility so then I was having to
make two different appointments hours of
difference and it's just it was really
hard to match him and so I haven't seen
her in a while but my therapist my
trauma therapist she said that she
thinks that I need to probably get back
in with her here soon because it just
seems kind of like I'm you know
struggling a little bit
so which could be I mean I'm not saying
I I will never deny I will never ever
deny that you know I will always
struggle but I know after Ramadan I have
to do something because this is just not
it's ain't gonna work for me yah yah yah
yah yah and always like another thing
too is Amy you've got to move he's like
you have to move and I agree with him a
hundred percent I find myself starting
to do
more sitting stuff and oh it's just a
cycle and it's so frustrating it's like
I just want to scream sometimes up
myself like why can't I just get my
stuff together as I use the tummies and
I don't get the munchies much I just
laugh a lot and get tired it has to be a
big help that you have a therapist my
appointment is coming up just Seattle
you I'm until you right now hands down
he has got to go
because that is a lifesaver it is almost
I know I went from anorexia to been Jean
it's all the same thing my eating
disorder is because of my childhood
traumas to my eating happiness because
of my emotions I had my emotions
sometimes yep Linda I agree I never
really understood food addiction until I
started taking medication and that made
me crave sweets and steroids years ago
oh wow pink when I am stressed I cannot
eat and then then that can be a problem
for me Oh Michelle no totally I I agree
my arm moves to use the remote or get
into the fridge oh Lisa it's depressing
to look in my closet at all those pretty
clothes and I can't wear them I agree
you guys I agree with every one of your
guys's statements because you know what
I'm right there I told my food addiction
counselor that we had lost our house
didn't know where to live my best friend
died and I hate to admit it but I cut
myself and my therapist said yeah no I
agree with you guys so much because all
those things for now I'm going to close
I won't talk to any therapist oh my gosh
whoa
sandy I am so sorry like that is so so
sad I am so sorry that is like so wrong
I am hitting the gym next week with hubs
can't wait yeah I wish that I could do
that the gym I just right now I can't
God I would think Erica I mean I could
never I could never imagine my therapist
doing that
isn't that awful I'm so devastated I
should have her yeah sandy I agree I
understand I would be in shock too but I
don't think I could ever imagine my
therapist doing that like she would be
reaching out more to me knowing
something like that was going on rather
than I'm gonna close your file and
goodbye hold on the hub stirs is coming
out let me see what he wants hold on
just a second
okay sorry oli needs the car so he can
go get the chips and salsa are the chips
also this also means mean ketchup on
here there in the cupholder I love you
all have a wonderful night I need to go
play nurse Oh Seattle thank you so much
for stopping by love I am so sorry I
didn't say that sooner but thank you so
much for stopping by I appreciate it and
you give that baby some lovin or whoever
sick
I shouldn't say baby because I don't
know what sick yes Erika that is very
very true I mean I know like when I have
talked to my therapist you know and told
her like I was having like dark thoughts
or something like that she immediately
was like we need to call you know the
number and look at there he goes there
goes the baby husband goodbye go get my
salsa and my beans see you later
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but yeah I love my therapist like I
could never I don't think I could ever
imagine life without having her in my
life at this point she has helped me so
much in so many ways and has allowed me
to grow from things oh sandy yeah I
would totally imagine I would be deathly
afraid of rejection too I mean a
therapist is who you're supposed to be
able to go to for your comfort in your
darkest times they're supposed to be
there for your support not throw you out
how many years ago was this by good Lord
I would still think about reporting her
if it wasn't like a long long time ago
oh sandy I wish I could my therapist is
amazing I could not oh sandy I would be
given a call girl hmm
no no that was not too long ago I would
be like you know what I didn't call
sooner because I have been an emotional
state of trauma you know now I would be
Colin that's my opinion
I would report her because that's not
okay that is not okay there's no reason
for it absolutely none and that breaks
my heart
like I mm she deserves to lose her job
sorry but she does because that of what
if she did that well I mean what if you
took that to another notch what if you
really did do something and really hurt
yourself over what she did exactly Lisa
kitty I agree I think she needs to call
I think that this is this would be
something totally IIIi that is so sad
you have to advocate for yourself
sweetie and I know it's scary sometimes
but you have to be the one to speak up
because nobody's gonna know unless you
say something and like they said what if
she did that to soar what if she's doing
that to somebody else and they really go
and hurt themselves you know that's a
life that could you know could be saved
just by you making one simple call I
would call I would
oh no you're not in the wrong she's in
the wrong ah ah no no no no no she is a
hundred percent in the wrong I just
changed therapist because I didn't like
his attitude and I got a female
therapist now I love her oh yeah they
were gonna put me with a male therapist
and then once they realized my past
history and all of that and knowing that
I don't trust men they were like no you
know because I mean I've been with my
therapist for may will be two years I
can't believe it but no I will be for
two years with my therapist and I am
just now getting to the point of being
able to really trust her a hundred
percent and like we were just talking
about last Monday there are times that I
still have a hard time letting her in
she has to really work to get you to get
in me when I'm having like my meltdowns
or my breakdowns right there in the room
she she will she's just like
at least she should have referred you to
someone else
I agree she was a food she was a food
addictions counselor she should have
said this I can handle but there is a
crisis number exactly sandy no there is
no excuse
this is may Amy what did I say please
hang in there sandy yeah please that's
what I thought Lisa and she is in a
mental health unit there are lots of
therapists I'm sure Wow
I'm so sorry and again I want to make
sure that you know I am praying for your
sister I pray that she gets the medical
attention that she needs and that they
treat her with all the respect needed oh
I've been with my therapist for two
years this month oh my god what am I
thinking oh my god okay oh that is too
much yes may uh huh this month I cannot
believe I'm already that far in anyways
okay you guys I need to get in the house
because my chickens are running around
and I need to go find them and see what
they're into which is really scary but I
love every one of you guys thank you no
sandy don't ever feel like you can't say
that oh my gosh
no that is what we're all here for that
is what this YouTube community is all
about is to be here for one another
don't ever feel like you can't talk
about anything no no no I appreciate you
coming and talking to us and feeling
secure and safe enough to and I just
hope that our words of encouragement
will reach you and help you build that
that strength to possibly make that
phone call if that's what needs to
happen but no nobody please don't ever
feel like you guys can't share anything
on this channel because everything you
say I completely 100% hands-down respect
and honor that you guys are even telling
me these things but anywho I am gonna
run you guys I don't want to get off but
I need to jump off but I love every one
of you guys thank you again so much and
again I want to thank all of my new
subscribers I am so thrilled happy
excited to have each and every one of
you guys here and all of my loyal long
followers I appreciate each of you guys
as well thank you for my mods I
appreciate it didn't need any mods
tonight we were good but you never know
but I will check in with you guys here
soon but yes I love you guys have a
wonderful wonderful evening take care
give your sister Sharon a hug for me
sandy and I will talk to you all soon
bye you guys